Rough Morning

For some reason these lyrics, from Blindside’s “When I Remember,” are hitting hard today:

I am walking blind
So distracted that I dont even feel when You hold me
When did I grow such thick skin
You are my sunshine and rain
My joy and sweet pain
I'm a spotless stain
That boy is gone
But nobody moves me like You do
When I remember

A cloud moves in, rain falls, thunder strikes
And sunshine breaks through the clouds
I can cry out of sorrow and joy
Every drop of rain turns into a crystal in the sun
So wash my eyes, my clothes, my skin, my bones, my soul, my feet, my love
I'm not forgotten
I'm in Your thoughts ’cause I feel sunshine in the rain

I’m having a rough day today, not because of school, but because of me—the things that go on inside, in the deep places. The Scriptures promise that a man is transformed by the renewing of his mind (ref. Romans 12:2). What if a mind is renewed to think of untruth and wickedness? The man who owns that mind will be transformed according to his lust (that is, “conformed to this world”). But I must look to God, as sunshine breaking through the clouds, and renew my mind according to the truth of His word, wherein I have found my salvation and peace, to know and approve of and desire the will of God.

Jason Upton, in his song “Will of God,” sang:

I’m tired of living in this world of sin
Tired of living in this game we’re in
Been to town and now I’m back again
Tired of living for the lust of men
And the world may think I’m crazy when I don’t run with them
But it’s just plain idolatry, when God can’t have all of me

I want to live for the will of God
O Lord, I want to follow
With all of my mind, all my heart and all my soul
I want to follow You, O Lord

I must remember: there is no liberty without victory; there is no victory without purity; there is no purity outside of the will of God.